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These Current Events | p. 11 |
The Heartbeat of Humidity | p. 13 |
The Glass Bracelets | p. 15 |
Found | p. 17 |
If You Speak | p. 18 |
Mother's Mother | p. 20 |
The Variable Field | p. 22 |
The Box of White Buttons | p. 25 |
The Daughters and the Crow | p. 26 |
Errands | p. 27 |
The Sunflower | p. 28 |
Another Use for Ice | p. 29 |
West 1-0-5 | p. 30 |
A Small Portrait | p. 31 |
The City Architect | p. 32 |
The Early 70s | p. 33 |
The Shower | p. 34 |
"A Radical View of Menstruation" | p. 36 |
Lice | p. 39 |
Everest | p. 40 |
Lili, 1933 | p. 42 |
The Details We Fall For | p. 43 |
Mine | p. 47 |
The Volcano's Desire | p. 59 |
Possession | p. 79 |
Blindsided | p. 82 |
Notes | p. 89 |
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Excerpt
These Current Events
It is a late twentieth century cliché that we must turn off
the hypersensitive television to distract our truer desire;
that we must switch off all the lamps and overheads,
open the shade to the natural night
with its artificial lights, dress in silk to undress,
play and play until even the nerve endings in our teeth beg
and we throb forcefully with all the affection
of reproducing ourselves in the act that will not.
In the sweat of it all, despite ideology, we shut out
the current events of the afternoon.
A few miles from my office a boat capsizes,
excretes three hundred men and women
into the frigid undertow towards death
or clean prison clothing and free legal assistance.
They are not poor by their own standards
and not all the same--teacher, peasant, entrepreneur--what
they fled was a state of dreaming
to the object of that illusion, as thousands before them,
millions behind. One states he is ambitious.
Another admits he has made a grave error .
As their bus glides through Flushing will they see
the American destitute housed in cardboard boxes?
I cannot look the man in the eye
who asks for spare change .
He smells of urine. His teeth are falling out.
Spare , janus word for extra and little.
Surplus for one, dear to another. Dear young man,
there is a collective for you, a union, a regiment,
the biblical multitude of spare people,
the redundant masses of spare labor.
Come exhausted and squalid,
come shitcovered, shitfaced, diseased and immune,
prick and cunt, come third world capitalist,
come Chinese laborer whose forefathers
blew tunnels through mountains,
lay track across the continent,
cut cane, starched the white shirts of the bourgeoisie;
whose uncle of your grandmother
fell unconscious under an avalanche of ice
in the Sierra Nevadas and could not be recovered
until the spring thaw. Come to the land of surplus value
where someone will overdose one night
after twenty hours of bussing tables. The stories
you have not heard or if you did you translated their meaning
as propaganda to keep you poor in a poor country
as opposed to poor in a wealthy country.
I cannot look in the face of the man cursing me out
because I don't want my car window washed.
I cannot look at the man, empty cup, empty pant legs,
who flashes a razor at me on his tongue.
I cannot speak to the girl pregnant with addiction
thanking me for nothing . I can
pick the paper up any day of the week
and find so much sorrow it is difficult to believe
there are solutions.
In the summer exhaust of a million air conditioners
I turn to my beloved for psalms, for physical reassurance.
The children snore softly behind the fan's whirl
because we have a place to plug in a fan.
If I turn to him or to you, if I turn to sheafs of paper
in order to turn away from these current events
it is only to revive the heartbeat of commitment.
I know poetry cannot save
but it fuels the gut that is able.
for Adrienne
The Heartbeat of Humidity
Against the June heat rising from the soft avenue
lined with bodegas, botanica, fix-it shops,
and the occasional numbers joint,
a street fair stretches various arms and awnings.
I step into the heat.
After my daughters are equipped with cones of shaved ice
I come to notice oil paintings stacked on two card tables.
Haitian artists? I ask. Yes--all from Port o'Prince.
From the depictions of laborers hauling and carrying
I spot a jungle scene with vegetation in every corner
even covering in part the panther, leopard and tiger
all in demanding mixtures of purple. This one please.
I ask the children what they like best
about the painting by J. Charlot.
Miya, the two palms that resemble car flares.
Rei, the three cats . I favor the leopard,
each spot as patterned as if stenciled.
I note their tails look like--a lamb's? not at all a cat's--and
think, these animals must not exist in Haiti so may be
part of the artist's fantasy--of Africa?
From a collective fantasy?
Somewhere in a barbed wire "facility"
translation is not linguistic but the physical
exchange of geographic location.
What blocks political and/or economic refugees here
is a small thing, a virus that debilitates
the very arteries of a culture. Who
pockets the key? Who owns the boats? Who counts the taxes
that pay for this detention of the spirit?
Sealed into the artist's landscape
the florescent glow is a profound coloration
of longing. I am privileged to purchase it.
I am privileged to love these animals the artist never saw.
Their translation here, fantastical:
the part of unrecoiled dreams that follows one
through downtown traffic, grocery line,
office memorandum.
And surely, because the painting is successful
my own fantasy of the jungle resides in
the heartbeat of the humidity--one's need
to take the offerings of the unconscious
and engage with those potent images of a land
existing wildly better without my post-colonial adjectives.
From the fantastical I also know
that since my mother died in a car accident
I believe even less in any god and more in natural forces,
such as steam and ash; the closest articulation
of my belief being the actualization of one's pulse--this
humble poem, that small painting.
Or my impulse to purchase this painting
could be more original .
Perhaps that is why the smell of turpentine
I know from my father's hands and studio
makes me reel. I put my nose up to the paint's density
and inhale the scent of home.
The artist's translation and my own. Luxuriant and testing.
The Glass Bracelets
I know I can only speak for myself
but after reading a simple story in The News
wish I could speak for a ninety-four-year-old woman
who on a day of the full moon of Magha in 1907,
at age seven, was led by her parents
to the Saundatti Temple in Karnataka
and given to the Hindu goddess Yellamma:
the childish glass arm bangles broken,
a nuptual necklace given her--
wedded to the diety Dev, Murali must never
marry a mortal, has never washed or cut
her long hair, a stiff mat of gray--her
duty was forever to be fucked
by those who come to the Temple.
At onset of menstruation the child was,
and still is, auctioned for the privilege of
tearing her hymen often times
by one with syphilis or gonorrhea--
virgins believed to be a certain cure.
It is difficult for me to like men at times,
any man, when such atrocities are sanctioned
by the religious. Atrocities for male pleasure.
And I doubt a woman concocted
the legend of this goddess. I am fucking mad
and want my daughters
to never leave our small Brooklyn apartment
though I know any room can be the residence
of secrets--like that of the man in Ocala, Florida
infecting six of his fourteen children
with venereal disease, fathering his daughter's babies,
beating their faces, beating their faces. This
while the religious target abortion clinics
and rude art. Who
can believe in a god in such a world
when god is made by man for men--I
will not respect a moment of silence
in my children's public school for the sake
of semi-automatic politicians wishing to purchase votes
with their small public piety.
And if you think this is not a poem
because I've ranted without benefit of a metaphor
think again: the story of Murali
is the story of any infant female or male
until the arteries of the status quo, of the silent,
of those who silence, or those who seek
solution in prayer, of those who limit choices--
until the varicose veins of the "religiously correct"
are slit and drawn. Until then
you, reader, are the five-year-old boy,
genitals severed and flesh neatly
folded back into a tiny cunt, or
the ten-year-old girl with second-stage syphilis
now lodged in her central nervous system.
Hear me: I will not pray. I will not pray.
Found
The New York Times 1/16/94
As soon as Lek sees her photograph
the quiet twelve-year-old girl
jumps up and pokes wildly at her image.
She has never told her life story
but now belts it out: "This girl
was sold by her mother." Louder:
"This girl was ten and she was sold
to a woman called Auntie. Auntie
put her in a brothel--beat her--
made her work." Lek grabs a stick
and begins striking the air
with each new point:
"This girl had lots of pains.
She had terrible headaches. She
cried a lot." Lek works every day.
There were many men, Thai
and foreign. After two years
Auntie sold her to a bar owner.
If You Speak
"They had everything to gain by keeping silent."
George Hicks, Comfort Women
If you speak you will become
what they made you: that cunt.
That cunt attached to a body
serving sometimes fifty men a day
for the Empire so the men
would not be killed by the bullets
the eyes hear
when the ears feel. If you
speak you will become the girl, fourteen,
fucked by six soldiers on the kitchen floor
in front of your papa and mama
then thrown into a truck.
The girl who didn't know
what they were doing, who didn't have
her monthly blood yet. Didn't understand
except it hurt,
it hurt her breathing, it hurt her father.
That her cunt remained a cunt.
Could never be privates ,
or vagina --her own body .
A towel and uniform. A mat.
Thirty men a day. Fifty on the front. If
you speak you will become
first person singular.
The little girl who poured mud
into cups for dolls. Jumped rope.
Fetched grandma's spectacles. If you speak
you become trash. You collaborate
with the conscience, become a mouth.
Become the fetus you pulled out
of your own body
in the common shower between scabby soldiers
and a trip to the doctor's
to see about this bleeding. This
afterbirth.Was it? What was it?
You will begin to know what
it is. To recall the gynecologist
who allowed soldiers to watch the exam.
Yes, then fucked you for free.
You are made to wear kimono. To speak
nihongo which is not part of your body
so in a way it's okay. It's better
because it is not how you'd speak to grandpa.
If, if--
You can tell everyone,
the soldiers did not take my little sister,
the soldiers took me.
If you could speak about this
would it be chronological or against
the orderliness of sequence. Could it
change the history of the Greater East Asian
Co-Prosperity Sphere? Would your
seventy-year-old tongue recall how oranges tasted
before they changed your Korean name to Japanese
and called you a comfort woman --
if you speak it means you remember.
Copyright © 1999 Kimiko Hahn. All rights reserved.