A Journey for My Father's Love and Mother's Secret

by Hug, Kim

• ISBN13: 9781449751715
• ISBN10: 1449751717
• Format: Hardcover
• Copyright: 2012-05-29
• Publisher: Westbow Press

Summary

When hope dies in a person, life seems over for them. This candid autobiography chronicles the story of a woman who lost hope. Her only solution was to attempt suicide, but on the night she tried to end her life, she found a miracle that would change her life forever. This book traces her journey though abandonment, sexual abuse, secrets, and paranoid psychosis, a journey that did not ultimately lead her to death but to life. She was many times lost in delusions of unreality and spent countless days in mental institutions, seeking answers to a way out of the darkness of her life. But the answer came when Jesus found her, her haunting memories were revealed, and she began to walk down a new, healing road. Here Kim Hug speaks of the power of Jesus and how he gave healing and hope to her life through many faithful people. This story was written through the inspiration of the Holy Spirit and is filled with creative pictures of memories and poetry as Kim rewalked her life over again to find the missing pieces to the puzzle of her life.

Excerpts

Late one night, God spoke to my heart while walking down Fifth Avenue in Pittsburgh’s Oakland neighborhood. He told me that I would write a book. I wondered how an uneducated mentally-ill reject could write a book; It is when God gets the glory that He uses improbable people. Fourteen years later, God gave me the words to write. It was my life story. I had been abandoned by my father, sexually molested by my uncle, and sexually assaulted by other men when I was a teenager. Consequently, I started having panic attacks. I became paranoid thinking my mother had done something terrible to me that I just couldn’t remember. I thought she was trying to hide an ugly family secret. I spent many days confined to mental institutions trying to find the reasons for my persistent pain. I bounced from one relationship with a man to another, trying to find the love I never received from my father. In my search for love, I found my Prince, and His name is Jesus. God led me to a church in Pittsburgh called Allegheny Center Alliance Church. I arrived there after many nervous breakdowns and termination from my job. There I received the nurture I needed and the answers I longed for; answers that would set me free from the haunting memories that had kept me bound most of my life.